Becoming

Sometimes in the process of developing our faith and spirituality, we feel uncertain and awkard.  In an effort to keep ourselves from a fall, we take our first step in faith and then try to run as fast as we can, even though we're just getting the hang of walking.  Then when the tumble comes, as it most often does, we feel too frustrated to make another attempt.  We have a lot to learn.  Yes, in the twinkling of an eye, we can become Christians by just acknowledging with our heart and mouth that Jesus is our Lord and Savior.  Yet becoming Christ-like is not so instantaneous.  Becoming Christ-like is a life journey.  It takes time.  So keep walking and working towards making inner changes and don't allow anyone, including yourself, to belittle your efforts.  More importantly, when attempts to overcome flaws don't go as well as planned, don't hide from God out of shame. Go to Him. In sincere prayer acknowledge your weaknesses and ask for help. God knows us.  He knows where we will fail.  He knows he could do a much better job with our lives than we can.  But God is such a gentleman.  He never forces himself on anyone and will only step in with permission. So let God know that you are letting him in.  Then give it time.  Others may not think much of us as we proceed on our growth journey because they only value the finished product.  We, though, should see ourselves as God sees us;  as the start of art. Every step of progress is God's stroke of genius. He enjoys the picture as it develops and so should you.  Look forward to what you will become and embrace the time of becoming.